Eagle's Nest!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

At Crossroads!

We've been at "it" for years; and though both of us know there's no future ahead of us, we still hang on to each other. Wondering why relationships can be so complicated! 

God has invested so much on me, but I keep teetering on the edge of fleshly desire. Now, two different routes are set before me: one leads to despair, the other to glory. Help me God!

I have a mandate to pioneer a specific move but here I am, unable to conclude the past. "Pass me not, oh gentle Savior; hear my humble cry." 

We both agreed to remain friends after some years of shared love and passion which ended abruptly, so we parted ways. But deep in our hearts, we wanted each other! No, I can't have her! 

Fate brought us together again and now the inevitable is about to happen; what do I do? Give in to flesh or God? Whoever came up with Okafor's law is an evil genius! 

The other day, I dreamt she was pregnant and had a baby girl for moi. Told her about the dream only for her to say "More of such dreams." 

A few months ago, I asked God to send me to hell if I ever slip into immorality. I noticed hevean was silent, perhaps in wonderment of my confidence in the flesh. Do I really have confidence in my flesh? Not at all! My prayer was borne out of genuine desire for divine visitation and hatred for sin. 

I'm so vulnerable! I need God's help, what about you?

I feel better now!

Here is a song dedicated to all Christians who loath their sins/flesh.

I Need The Every Hour

1. I need thee every hour, most gracious Lord; 
    no tender voice like thine can peace afford.

   I need thee, O I need thee; 
   every hour I need thee; 
   O bless me now, my Savior, I come to thee.

2. I need thee every hour; stay thou nearby; 
   temptations lose their power when thou art nigh. 

3. I need thee every hour, in joy or pain; 
   come quickly and abide, or life is vain. 

4. I need thee every hour; teach me thy will; 
   and thy rich promises in me fulfill. 

5. I need thee every hour, most Holy One; 
   O make me thine indeed, thou blessed Son.